This work marks the beginning of a new body of paintings that emerged after my States of Consciousness series. During that process, I discovered a visual language that brought me genuine joy and a desire to continue exploring it.

Wanting to strengthen my observation, I began attending live sketching sessions. Through drawing from life, I became increasingly drawn to charcoal and its ability to capture presence with honesty. One day, I realised that I was the most immediate subject available to me. In that moment, I chose to draw myself. The self-portrait was not planned—it was a spontaneous response to the present, and it became the foundation of this painting.

Positioned between two opposing abstract figures, the portrait reflects the dualities that exist within me. While viewers may interpret the blue and red forms differently, I see both sides as equally important. Neither is dominant; together they form a complete self. This work continues my interest in consciousness, not as fixed identities, but as constantly shifting states experienced in the present moment.